twenty thirteen thankfuls

2013... Whattayear!!!

Thankful for these in 2013:

The chubby baby that just finished his nighttime feed :)) you are the highlight of the year my Rayi.. both carrying you inside, giving birth to you and caring for you til now.

Rakaa.. I finally fulfilled your right to be breastfed until 2 years. The last months were surely hard for us with me being pregnant then having Rayi. We endured those trying times of nursing while pregnant and tandem nursing. I don't care if it's weaning with love or not.. whatever it is I truly did it out of love, baby.

Resigning from my fulltime job. I can be with my boys 24/7. Best. Ever.

Passing the scholarship selection. Endured a 12-day training then officially becoming an LPDP awardee for doctoral program to the University of Queensland. Meeting wonderful people during the training. As in, really jawdroppingly amazing Indonesians.

Thank you Allah for my boys. Akang. Raka. Rayi..

..and the rest of my family.

2014 will surely be more exciting with 2 toddlers, moving to our own house, becoming a doctoral student.. amiiiinnn...

Happy new year 2014, folks!

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You, me, and your smartphone

You know what I miss? Long talks, without the interruption of your smartphones.

Beruntung suami sama kolotnya sama saya. Walaupun sama2 punya smartphone, kami gak langganan paket internet. Komunikasi masih old school, telepon dan sms. Dulu suka Gtalk dan email pas suami di kantor tapi udah jarang. Kalo saya sih merasa pemborosan langganan paket internet, toh bisa pake wifi di rumah dan kantor (waktu masih kerja). Kalo lagi di luar rumah, saya fokus berkegiatan daripada sibuk sama gadget.

Orang pake gadget pas dimana sih? Lagi macet2an.. saya lebih suka melihat2, memperhatikan suasana diluar kendaraan (saat di mobil) atau sesama penumpang (saat di angkutan umum). Saat menunggu di ruang dokter (berhubung sering ke dokter akhir2 ini), lebih suka baca majalah yg tersedia, atau ngaji. Saat lagi ngumpul sama teman.. well, obviously saya fokus ke mereka lah, si gadget aman di tas.

Makanya rada gemes sama orang yg lg ngobrol sama saya, tapi tangannya sibuk main gadget. Otomatis gak bisa fokus lah ya, obrolan jd gak lancar karena dia lagi ngobrol sama orang laij juga di dunia maya, yg didepan mata dianggurin dulu. For me, it is offending.

Justru smartphone malah bikin hidup makin gak tenang ya. Kemana2 harus update status di socmed, ini difoto dulu, hrs dapet angle yg bagus, trus diedit dulu, dibikin collage baru deh dikirim. Chattingan di group sampe ratusan, belum lagi chattingan sama yg lain. Begitu bangun tidur yg dicari hp, mau tidur juga harus pegang hp baru bisa ngantuk. Etapi malah gak ngantuk2, tidurpun berkurang.

Kemarin waktu dikarantina, hp saya yg notabene smartphone, rusak. Saat itu agendanya ke Gunung Salak dan Rindam Jaya. Anehnya, begitu balik ke Sentul bener lagi. Hikmahnya, saya jadi bisa fokus sama kegiatan, gak sibuk nyari sinyal atau sibuk buka internet begitu sampai lagi di peradaban. Yah paling jadi super kangen sama keluarga, karena gak bisa tahu kabar mereka.

Gak apa2 sih eksis di dunia maya.. but please respect the person in front of you. Who took their time to see you, to talk to you in person. Karena kita gak tahu berapA besar yg mereka korbankan untuk bisa bertemu dan ngobrol sama kita. If it's not urgent, bukan suami/istri/ortu/anak on the other line, then put your phone aside and be present for me.

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Daddy

I was browsing my brother's Facebook page and saw a post about our late father. He posted it on Dad's birthday on November 25th. He would be 60 years old.

I felt tears welling up inside, I know that I miss him. Often when I look at Rayi, I get reminded of him. There is something about Rayi that reminds me of him. Maybe it's the mouth. Maybe it's the thick eyebrows. Maybe it's just Rayi's fierce stare that reminded me of his strongwilled grandpa.

My daddy died when Rayi was 2 months in the womb. A few days before his death, he told me that the baby would be a boy, and that he wanted to chip in when we name him. He was right on the former, although at that time I insisted I was having a girl. So I guess I always feel that there's a piece of him that is left in Rayi.. because when he's gone, Rayi was born.

We had our differences, he wasn't always the greatest father and I wasn't always the greatest daughter. But there is no doubt about it, he is my daddy. He was my daddy when I was little, he was my daddy who wedded me and gave me away to my husband.

Rest well, Daddy.

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My Chubby Babies

Kemarin ngeliat growth chart Rayi. Yg plot dokter2nya sih. Baru ngeh dia beratny udah lewat.kurva paling atas yaitu 97th percentile. Pas cek di calculator GC,berat Rayi adalaah di 99 percentile di bulan pertama dan keduanya. Huaaa endutnyaa..

Jadi Rayi pas dtimbang usia 2m4d itu udah 7,02kg. Si Raka seumuran dia klo ga salah 6,6kg deh. Entah kenapa gw bisa membesarkan bayi2 bomber gini.. Padahal minum ASI thok dari gentongnya (well Rayi sempet full dot sih ya pas gw karantina). Yg heran si Rayi ini, dia mimiknya gak heboh kayak Raka padahal lho. 3-4 jam sekali lah nyusunya. Sekali nyusu juga cuma 10menit.

Kesimpulan gw: emang ASI gw yg kandungannya banyak lemak makanya cepet gede. Dan oversupply jg sih jadinya. Trus nyusuin sekarang ini gampang bgt LDR. Dikit2 serr... Mulai gini pas mendekati 2bulan, abis gw karantina itu. Dikit2 LDR dan pagi2 PD keras membatu padahal malemnya udah dikosongin dulu dan Rayi masih sering nyusu malem. PR bgt deh abis begadang, pagi2 hrs merah dulu, klo dsusuin Rayi bisa misuh2 kesemprot. Dia klo alirannya kenceng dilepas dulu PDnya, gak kayak Raka yg masih tetep usaha sampe keselek. Sayangnya Rayi ga doyan laid back position/posisi IMD jadi klo lagi muncrat ya dia tungguin sampe berhenti mancur2 hehe.

Seneng ga punya bayi tembem gede bgini? Seneng sih..lucu liatnya..tapi pegel gendongnya dan boros baju (untung bisa pake bekas kakaknya) dan boros pospak juga. Masa usia 1,5bln udah pake ukuran M, yg NB cuma muat seminggu pertama aja -_-! Masih mikir2 mau diclodiin apa ngga.. Aku malas stripping2nya.. Dan si Rayi cocok pake pospak, ga sesensitif Raka. Haha ktauan makein clodi karena keharusan,bukan mau gogreen.. Aplg skrg udah kenal Tororo yg murce2 pospaknya hehe.

Harapan gw semoga Rayi sehat terus,beratnya normal lah jangan naik turun karena sakit2 kayak Raka jadinya langsing sekarang.. Amiinn

Etapii.. Raka juga pesat lho kenaikan BBnya. Sekarang udh 12kg,naik 1kg sejak sebulan yg lalu. Bener ternyata ya,klo udah disapih langsung naik BBnya..

Sehat2 selalu ya jagoan2ku sayaang :-*

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Imunisasi di Rumah Vaksinasi

Kemarin kita ke Rumah Vaksinasi Kebagusan. Akhirnya ya, setelah niat mau ke Rumah Vaksinasi @dr_piprim dari awal buka, baru kesampean sekarang. Dulu terlalu ngefans sm Tante Dokter, jd balik lagi ke dia tiap Raka imunisasi.

Sekarang, Rai 2 bulan imunisasinya paling heboh. DPT, Hib, Polio, PCV, rotavirus, BCG. Klo tetep ke KMC or RSPP bisa bangkruut..blm lagi Raka mau tifoid juga,kmrn di RSPP dan KMC kosong. Setelah minta ijin Akang, setuju kita ke @rvkebagusan saja.

Sampe sana, trnyata tempatny kyk rumah gitu, homey jadinya ga kaya klinik. Mungil sih, tp ga rame bgt jd nungguny ga lama. Setelah daftar, timbang ukur dll, Raka dipanggil deh sm dokternya. Raka yg bangun bobo mulai manyun2, gw udah takut bakal drama krn dia klo ngantuk biasanya tantrum. Tapi dokternya pinter.. Raka diperiksa sambil digendong sm gw. Pas mau disuntik pun, dia sambil duduk di pangkuan gw. Disuntiknya di lengan. Daan amazingly anaknya ga nangis sama sekali!! Gw terkagum2 hahaa..

Ternyata kata dokternya kalo disuntik di paha lebih sakit drpd di lengan. Trus knp klo bayi disuntik di paha? Krn vaksin disuntik di otot, klo bayi jaringan ototny blm sempurna, banyakan di paha makanya disuntik disitu. klo udah bisa jalan/usia 1thnan biasanya ganti di lengan. Makes sense sih, Raka pernah pas 1thnan disuntik di paha udahannya jalannya pincang dan ngeluh sakit kakinya :( skrg udah disuntik di lengan ya kayak orang dewasa. my big boy :')

Abis itu giliran Rai yg ngeborong vaksin. Stlh dijelasin panjang lebar tentang jenis vaksin dan penyakityl yg dicegahnya,kita mutusin untuk ambil Pediacel, Synflorix, Rotateq dan BCG standar ya. Pas diminumin Rotateq anaknya senyum2.. Pas disuntik nangis kejer membahanaa.. Pukpuk anak bayi.. Abis itu disusuin tenang lagi.

Sesudahnya Akang tinggal bayar.. Sebenernya bisa pake debit tapi pas Akang error, jd hrs ke atm dulu ambil duit. Sampe rumah liat kwitansinya, untuk vaksin tifoid, DPaT-Hib-polio, PCV, BCG, Rotavirus plus jasadokter cuma abiiss.. IDR 1,7 juta sajaaa!!

Terharuu..

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